SOUNDTrack: Lessions and Lyrics, Lifts and Loops

I’m at a definite crossroads right now.

Laying it all down, and going down for the last time…

I read something about that the other day…

“Going down for the last time….”

Not exactly sure what that means….

But anyway….

These "cross" roads are clearly marked,

With lights, stop signs, yields, flashing yellow lights  and music.

As if I had any question at all…

I am definitely at a crossroads.

Every sign of that is present, clear and undeniable.

So, what do I do now?

How do I navigate down the right street?

How do I choose the correct path?

Here I am.

Here I stand.

There are tons of well-wishers waving me on…

I just wish I could see what directly they are waving in?

Perhaps a clue of what I should do.

I could go there, but indeed,  I won’t.

For any pivotal transition, one needs appropriate score, theme music, as it were, to help carry them through the tedium of the journey.

The SOUNDTrack for my "Crossroads Season":

1.      Pat Metheny: To the End of the World - 12 minutes of awesomeness, relaxation, whirlwind, and epiphany. #Clutch for the times when I don't know what to think or to say.

2.      Marcus Miller: Boomerang - hush and quiet for my harrowed soul

3.      Yellowjackets: Indivisible - a musical depiction of the winding turns of my journey, all to come out smooth on the other side.

4.      Yellowjackets: Geraldine - she sings, I listen.

5.     Yellowjackets: The Hope - since believing is all we can do, with the hope that we live for, too.

6.     Andrae Crouch: Just Like He Said He Would - for obvious reasons.

7.     Tramaine Hawkins: When You Pray - because sometimes you need to, "just have faith."

8.     Dawn of Destiny: Dawn of Destiny - because I am inwardly prepping myself for something I cannot see. Reaching for the #dawn of my #destiny. My brother wrote this song, and he captured so much.  He is a genius.

9.     D'Angelo:  Really Love - definite choice for just about any soundtrack. Comforting melodies and an intoxicating groove.  I kind of get mindless with this song.

D'Angelo: Feel Like Love  - strictly a groove choice.

11.   Dawn of Destiny: Don't Let Her Go - because, don't. Don't do that.

1. Erykah Badu: Bag Lady - because I'm getting rid of the dead weight, like I'm supposed to.

13.   Andrae Crouch: I'll Still Love You - because I always will love Him. No matter what.

14.   Edwin Hawkins: Imagine Heaven - because I do.

15.   Hymn:  Love Lifted Me - really, it did.

16.   Richard Smallwood: Jesus, You're the Center of my Joy - always.

17.   Bob Bailey: Lifter of My Head - He is.

18.   Brandy: He Is - because, well, He absolutely is.

19.   Hawkins: God Is - He definitely is.

20.   Sounds of Blackness: A Very Special Love - unquestionably, it is.

21.   Soul II Soul: Free Again - so good to be free again, and have a good time.

22.   Meshell N'degeocello: So Beautiful - yes, it is.

23.   Hymn:  More Love to Thee - need this always.

24.   Hymn:  I Need Thee Ev'ry Hour - absolutely dying need.

25.   Gerald Loyd: He's Able (Challenge the Lord) - yes, He is!

26.   Gerald Loyd: It's My Turn Now - it is, it is!!

27.   Luther Vandross: So Amazing to Be Loved - follow you to the moon and the stars above.

28.   The Stylistics: Betcha By Golly Wow - I just betcha.

29.   Earth, Wind & Fire:  Can't Hide Love - music, vocals, the entire experience.  I love it when Dawn of Destiny performs this.  And I betcha….whoaaaaahh…feelings showwww!  #DoThat #Yassss!

30.   Stevie Wonder:  Overjoyed - can't wait to be.

31.   Oleta Adams:  Beams of Heaven – as I go….through this wilderness below…Guide my feet in peaceful ways…turn my midnight into day….

32.   Gerald Loyd:  I Thank You Lord – Lord, I see how far I’ve come… You’ve brought me with Your powerful arm, from a mighty long way…You gave me sufficient grace, to help me to run this race, each and every day….#Preach!! Through many dangers, toils, and snares, I have already come!  Twas your grace that brought me safe thus far, and grace will lead me on! When I look around and see, everything that You’ve done for me…I Thank You, Lord!

33.    Tramaine Hawkins:  Take My Sad Heart and Make it Glad – Set me free, dear Lord, from myself, I pray…Every time You start to move in me, I get in Your Way! Always trying to see, when nothing’s clear to me….You saw my beginning, and You’ll see my end…So, on You Lord, I will depend.  You can take my sad heart and make it glad!  Help me Lord, not to be shaken, by the things that I see, nor what it appears like, for it doesn’t have to be…All things work together, that means the good, that means the bad….So, You can take my sad heart and make it glad!

If you can get it out of your mind, I guess you can get it out of your heart.

eek...

Okay, that's all I'm going to say about that.

If I could just stop thinking and biting and picking at my nails.  I'm wasting my own money on these acrylics.... *ugh* eyeroll....

Peppermint oil for the pain in my back, and I'm over here at work smelling like "church mints"....LaSha....*LOL tears*

Well....

"Just make a solid decision to go forward from here in a different way than you have in the past."

“Mountains, not so high, when measured by the love you bring to me.

Valleys, not so low, if measured by the joy you bring to me,

Happiness is just another word, without the gift of love that only you can bring…

Loving you is easy…”   (never has been, though)?

Nail biting, soul-rendering, damnable stress… and for nothing??

UNsold. UnSnaked, UnMoved. UnMatched. 

#Welp. At least I have my prayers and good music.