Gestation

Burning indigestion
Worn and waiting
Crying and praying
Loving and hating
Wishing and wanting
Trusting and wavering

Am I a fool to trust a process unseen
With only glimpses and symptoms of what was promised to me

Should I remain in this state of waiting?
You're 38, so you should be dating!

Not interested in the endless tango and fall
If the shoe doesn't fit, don't put it on at all.

But how will you know unless you try?
Some things you know you should just let pass by.

So here I am.
The nursery's painted, the crib is all set
but the view of this miracle
hasn't surfaced yet

I see movement and stirring
sometimes, I feel it inside
but through all this waiting
this pendulum slides

I want it so badly
to see, hold and touch
If I've got to wait longer
I hate to want it so much

When will this discomfort end
The time to be joined to a forever friend
He needs me and I need him
We need each other--for our lives to begin

It's coming, it's time.
Be glad you prepared
For the love of your life
to surround you and a life to be shared.